Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Heart Sounds

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Last week I went to have a heart test called a Thallium Scan. This is to check and see if all the blood vessels in my heart are flowing freely and if there are any cold spots. It could be all those years of enjoying butter on just about everything is perhaps catching up with me. We will see :)

In the meantime, if I were to go through the check point at the airport the Geiger Counter would tell them that I was somewhat radioactive. That would be fun ! Maybe I glow in the dark like the Tender Heart Care Bear my sister bought for me.

Anyway, time will tell what has occurred , if anything in my physical heart.

On the home front I am in my new place and it is turning out to be quite an adjustment. I guess as with any new situation , leaving a comfort zone is not as easy sometimes as we would hope.

I also have another job. That makes three to juggle my schedule around. This one is Secretary / Receptionist for an Eye Physician and Surgeon, a very busy practice. All good experience for me. I am thankful for the small things, even though it may seem otherwise at times.

I will be glad when Spring arrives.

Song of Sol. 2:10-13.

Son 2:10 My Beloved spoke, and said to me, Rise up, My love, My beautiful one, and come away.
Son 2:11 For lo, the winter is past, the rain is over and gone
Son 2:12 The flowers appear on the earth; the time of singing has come, and the voice of the turtle-dove is heard in our land;
Son 2:13 the fig tree puts forth her green figs, and the vines with the tender grape give a good smell. Arise, My love, My beautiful one, and come away

Thursday, February 21, 2008

True Love/David Ruis

I miss this kind of worship !!
To clarify; it is the heart behind the music and the truth in the lyrics that continues to move my heart each time I hear it.

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

As The Seasons Change

The thing I am so grateful for is the way that the Lord provided Ann and her home for Sam and I, well , mostly Sam . Ann has a tender and compassionate heart and was so very good to my Sam, and because of her loving nature, the last year of Sam's life was spent in a gentle and friendly environment. The most fun was his discovery and enjoyment of the squirrel population in the back yard .

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So the season changed when I lost Sam . I tried to run from the pain of the memories by trying , to no avail , to find another place to live right after his passing.
The Lord knows best and I'm still learning to trust him day by weary day.
I miss my little buddy and the fact that life goes on does not make me feel any better. Still... what passes for living these days is not exactly Real Life either.

Tonight I sat with my client Min as he was distressing over his deteriorating mental state. 'I guess the only thing for me to do is to go to bed'.
He wasn't really tired but his brain is dying and he can't focus his mind so it gets him down. He is getting worse and we all see it.

Today he called it 'mind sickness'. Sometimes I wonder what it must be like from the inside though I pray I never find out. Once he called it 'black velvet'.
My heart broke for him tonight as I cried out for mercy to meet him .

I remember something a friend said to me once.

'I see Jesus walking with you in His distressing disguise.' It is a quote from Mother Teresa, but ever since , there are times when I am more aware of this than others and tonight was one of those times.

Eternity is very near in that home these days and I wonder where I will be when the Unseen becomes the Reality for all of us there. I wonder if it will be on my shift ? I am so selfish when it comes to trying to get my rest , I pray mercy will be with all of us when the moment comes.
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well i am moved into my little space


this is how i feel

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and like this .... making progress but with great effort


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a big thank you to ann and john, without whose help i would be face down in a snow bank unable to get up again. i am getting way too old for all this physical torment.

next time i will have to hire someone..... next time ???

yes, next time, for this is still not my final resting place.... aaccckkk!!!! Lord have mercy i won't think about that right now.

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anyway, thanks guys.

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Packing packing packing......

I also shut down my Facebook site since some spam was getting into my email in box and I find it distressing that you cannot delete your information, only deactivate...maybe I'm naive but that makes me uncomfortable.

Anyway, back to packing, packing, packing, working, groaning and packing.

Lord have mercy !!

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

Yay!

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Ten days until I move to my new residence. It is in a private part of a house and kind of like a little bachelor suite . My very own kitchen sink !! A wee little frig , my very own bathroom.... etc.... and PRIVACY ! I will be going from Middleton Drive, to Center Street....obviously still not my final destination, but a definite improvement.

I am very grateful to the Lord, for He has heard my plea, and He has a very good sense of humor.