It was around 4 am. and I heard her coughing. I jumped from my bed and dashed to the kitchen, peered around the corner. I was about to ask her if she needed any help, but the coughing had ceased, so I quietly tip toed back to bed. I did not want to rouse her if it was not necessary since her pain and the wandering it cause her to do would mean a very long day. Then I heard a little more coughing and waited again. Silence.
Later that morning , around 9:20 am I went to put the coffee on. I peeked around the corner into the living room where we had her hospital bed set up, to see if Aunt T. was awake yet. Much to my horror she had passed away, and it was very obvious that this was so. I was freaking out and I was so scared ! I tip toed over to her almost afraid that if it was not really true and she opened her eyes, she would surely wonder what I was doing.
Anyway, that was three years ago, and this morning I was asking and wondering why I did not go and rouse her when I first heard her coughing. Was I being selfish in not wanting to wake her just so we could all get our rest, or was it meant to be the way it happened? Well, I wished I had done so, since then I would have been with her all the way home.
But I digress. As I was asking the Lord about all of this He very clearly showed me the truth of her final moments. THE LIFE APPEARED !!!
This is so amazing ! I can't tell you how many images of death and dying fell to the dust in my mind .
1 John 1:1-2 - The Word of Life
1That which was from the beginning, which we have seen with our eyes, which we have looked at and our hands have touched - this we proclaim concerning the Word of Life.
2The Life appeared; we have seen it and testify to it, and proclaim to you the Eternal Life`, which was with the Father and has appeared to us.
The Life appeared : was made manifest, to reveal,to remove the lid ,the act of divine revelation. TO BECOME VISIBLE !
So once again I knew, Jesus Himself showed up , once again in triumph , escorting another dear one into Eternal Life. ( I guess He did not really need my help. )
No wonder John the Baptist leapt in his mothers womb at the greating of Mary when she went to visit Elizabeth. The Life appeared !
Lord I do not want to live a life of dullness . Awaken my heart and my hope once again to be stirred to passion at the approach of Life Himself.
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The angels were with Aunt T when she went home Nancy.Its a solmen time between God and man, a time when the sweet charriot swings down low to carry them home. i 've been there for my Dad and Uncle (his elder brother). Fir us a time of confusion and grief, but peace for our loved ones.
But somehow we cannot prepare ourselves for it. I am afraid sometimes.I saw a book in a Catholic bookshop written by a nun called something like Saying Goodbye. It made sense as i skimmed it but did not buy it at that time. i think I will.
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