I Wish I Understood

This is my Aunt Kay and Aunt Teresa, both now in heaven, Praise the Lord!

Today I received a call from my work, to take a shift that I don't usually have. Needing to make a living wage I accepted, and cut an hour from my school class to get there in time.

The lovely lady I cared for today has more advanced Alzheimer's than my clients that I do on the weekends. This Lady lives in a facility, a very nice facility, with others who also need the full time care.

I was not prepared ! I was definitely not prepared .

My Lady today cannot speak her words coherently any longer, so I could not understand her wishes, except to try to interpret by the tone of her voice.
I walked the halls with her, holding her hand. I changed her under garments, fed her dinner, and dressed her for bed, tucked her in, and said a small prayer over her, as she wept.

When I looked in her eyes, I saw my Aunt Kay. My Aunt Kay passed away over a year and a half ago from Alzheimer's.

In this ward, there were about twenty or so patients, men and women. One lady at our table was being fed by a worker, and her food was all over her mouth , like the way babies eat.

I thought of You Jesus. I tried to imagine the God of Creation, my Lovely Savior, hidden in her, with food smeared all over His mouth, and He unable to clean it off Himself. It was difficult. It is too much!

These dear souls walking the floors,( at least those who are still able to walk on their own,) having no comprehension . The man in the wheel chair, with the trachea tube hanging down the front of his shirt trying to mouth wordlessly to me, something I could not understand.

I don't understand anything. What is it about being human, that at the end of our time here on this side of eternity, so many of us are in this sad situation, and yet somewhere , somehow, there is a Sovereign plan unfolding for each of us.

I just keep thinking I don't understand, I am not qualified to do this.

Thank the Lord there are many wonderful workers who cheerfully meet the needs of these dear ones as best they can. They do a really great job, and serve these mostly forgotten ones with compassion, wit, and dedication.

I admire you, but I do not think I can be one of you.
How do you handle the pain ?
Yours at beholding this.
Theirs at enduring this ?
How do you keep your own heart soft in the face of this suffering ?

I wish I understood the "Why" Lord ?

Toronto

Today my sister JoAnne and I took a little trip to Toronto. Jo had to see a doctor, so I accompanied her for moral and prayer support.

We travelled by Greyhound Bus. This is a much easier mode of transportation when going to the heart of the city. The bus depot is about a two minute walk from Eaton Center, where, of course we walked our small town legs off. Oh...and we did a bit of shopping and a lot of browsing.

Later we walked north on Yonge St. in search of a certain little specialty shop. It is a strange experience to walk on Yonge Street. The day was lovely.

Saw this.....for real.


I whispered a prayer, and wondered if that was Jesus in disguise.

Of course this person is only one of many , but today in the midst of this busy city, I was only aware of the lost. It seemed to me to be a multitude , and I wondered what it would take to bring True Salvation and if there would be any who would say yes .

Sometimes the Mystery is overwhelming.

There's Gonna Be A Wedding!

Jack and Gracie are getting married this week! I am so excited at the thought of my 'baby'(now 31) getting married to the 'Lovely Lady' he has searched for since he was a young man so eager for 'true' love.

I have found a beautiful dress and shoes that I need to practice wearing so I will walk like a lady should.

Family is in town ! My daugther Julie and the boys arrived last night, Jason, the best man, and Yvonne, are arriving soon as well. My sister Joanne and Julie and I are driving to Toronto on Thursday. I will be driving around Toronto ! Another fear will bite the dust I pray ! Help God ! Get me to the church on time!

For a few days I will step into another 'world' and bless and celebrate the happiness of my children. A welcome change and as valid a reality as the other world of my work.

Yay God ! There's gonna be a wedding !!!!!

Moved Again !

Moved ....just next door to a much nicer and larger place. I think I have walked up and down the stairs so much I have lost count. Moved everything myself, with the exception of an hour yesterday when my nephew Adam helped me.

I am very tired and this old body is groaning loudly, and it is not intercession. Sam is adjusting well, and perhaps we will be here for a bit. Maybe, just maybe, I will find rest .

Farm Friends

Meet Tom, the main man and most friendly of the farm managerie. I really know nothing else about him other than he is a donkey. A very nice donkey.


This is Tom's buddy White donkey....I don't even know his name, but he is white and kind of cute.

I do not know the name of this next species but they get fat and large by sucking the algae from the sides of the glass of the aquarium. The only reason I took these shots was because he looked as if he was in an amazing position of worship. Who knows for sure, right ? Otherwise it is gross. I know, I know, leave it to me to think of the worship thing.








This fellow above is a White African Frog. He is very wierd looking, and seems to be smiling as he waits for his food. The rest of the time he looks quite dead, except when he uses his little fins to shovel the food into his mouth.

Here is my Sam having a (gggggrrrrr) conversation with white froggie.



The rest of the animals are not blog worthy really , and the smells made me sneeze . A lot ! Will I do this again sometime ? Most definitely . Thanks to Rob and Judy for a very fun and different few days.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASON

Thirty three years ago today!!!!!









I love you and I am so proud of you and all you have accomplished. Happy Birthday, my son. Have a great day....with a good birthday cake. Forget the points today.

Sarah's Wedding

A beautiful day for a wedding. My niece Sarah married her true love today. A lovely celebration of young love beginning the journey of life together.

The most touching moments for me. As Sarah and her father walked down the asile toward the waiting groom, Sarah became overwhelmed with emotion the closer she came to Mike. I was just as choked up as she was, well maybe not as much as Sarah, but she was trying to hold back her tears. What a lovely sight and heart felt emotion.

The next and best was as she was speaking her vows to Mike, she wept as she pledged her love to him. I watched as he held her hands, and encouraged her with little tender brushings of his fingers on her trembling hands.

Signals constantly passed between them and I wondered if they would even remember what the minister was saying, as their unspoken language seemed to me louder and more real than the actual words they were speaking.

I wish you joy beyond words Sarah and Mike. Your love blessed my life today.